Confession: I am sick of thinking about sexual violence, both publicly and personally. I am tired of coming to a keyboard and bleeding for naught. I am defeated by the reality that I am forced to exist in.



I have spoken and written, both poetry and prose, about the matter for what feels like eons. I have had my lamentations met with scorn and threats of the violence I speak against. My entire being has been drenched with the subject, yet the toil seems to have only taken a toll on my spirit.

Perhaps someday we can banish the phrase ‘rape culture’ to the deepest bowels of hell; perhaps the perfidy with which so called allies manipulate and gaslight us can be excoriated along with it; perhaps the idea of of feminist allies will be removed from our vernacular, because we’ll all simply be feminists.

I do not dare to dream of a utopia for women where patriarchy and misogyny are antiquated – my imagination isn’t that vivid. I do envision a world at least marginally better than this one. It has to exist.


5 thoughts on “fatiguée

  1. Thank you for writing this. I have seen myself shrink from even the keyboard and other duties like poetry when I am needed to speak up because it hurts and drains me. Thank you for having the words.

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  2. Such a powerful piece. It is indeed a big shame that we have to live in this world. We are far better than this. All we can do is keep fighting until our generation witness change. Keep doing what you do Mich. Gifted talented writer.

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  3. Ok, This!!!! ALL.THE.FEELS!!!! ALL.THE.TRUTH!!!!”perhaps the idea of feminist allies will be removed from our vernacular, because we’ll all simply be feminists”….This line gave me life!!

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